Things aren't always #000000 and #FFFFFFF 

When your head and your heart fight, which side do you pick?

At some stage in life, everyone will come across this dilemma. 

Arguing with yourself, wondering what is the right thing to do? What choice should I make? Why does it have to be so hard for them to agree?  

But that's life for you.

Let's try living life basing every decision on what your head tells you to, there will be no such thing as love, lust or loyalty. What is eloping and what is belief? 

If you evaluated every situation with only your head without any influence from your heart, life would be bland, you will always choose the most logical and practical decision even if that meant breaking a best friends heart. Spontaneity would become obsolete and gazing into someones eyes would be meaningless.

If you always thought with your heart, vulnerable would become the definition of you, trust will be given out like complimentary dessert and you will meet disappointments day by day. Life will be like skipping on a rainbow but you'll never reach your bucket of gold, the risk of getting your heart broken is almost destined.

So this is why you need the influence of both your head and heart to make every decision in life. 

But what do you do when they're on opposing teams? 

Your head tells you it's a bad idea, you will get hurt.

Your heart tells you leap into it, take a risk, take a chance.

I've always wanted to fall madly in love, there will be a day where I'll stop listening to love songs and write my own. But I've never been a girl who relies on someone else to bring me happiness, and I know better than to waste my time investing on something that won't get me any returns.

Then why am I so confused?

I guess, when it comes to love you'll never know, maybe sometimes you want something so bad you believe it to be more than it is. It's not always like the movies and love songs. 

Maybe it is worth it, maybe it is time to take that risk to have it all, maybe he isn't lying?

Love is not a maybe thing. 

If its right it shouldn't be this hard, you should never be left to figure this out all on your own. 

I think in the end, you've always known the answer all along, it's just harder to let go than you expected. You try to convince yourself that it's not as bad as it seems, but at some point you need to realise the difference between determination and desperation. 

Don't spend time beating on a wall hoping for it to transform into a door.

It's never easy to do the right thing, but if life wasn't a struggle then you wouldn't be able to appreciate it when it goes right.